It’s funny how things can go. Even with my lovely new office space (which I FINALLY got set up) I haven’t gotten much writing done. *sigh
I’ve tried all sorts of things: exercising, meditation, taking a complete break from writing, forcing myself to sit and stare at the blank screen, reading books on theory or characterization or how to write the bestest.book.ever, etc. I’d get a couple hundred words out and then….nothing. Every story I tried…and I’ve tried 4 or 5 this summer…have petered into nothingness.
Now, if you’ve read my other posts, you know that I’m a sporadic writer at best. I don’t think I’ll ever be what you call prolific. But I always managed to get SOMETHING down, even if I did switch projects. But not this summer.
I could offer excuses. We just moved and were still settling in. We acquired a new puppy soon after moving in. This house is a lot more ‘active’ than the old one. Et cetera. Et cetera. Et cetera. But it’s all sophistry. If I really WANTED to write, that’s what I’d do.
So I need to delve into the reason why I don’t want to write. Is it fear of failure? Fear of my second story not being as good as the first? Is it fear that the first one wasn’t really that good and the more books I put out the more people are going to find out I’m a fraud?
Seeing a trend here? It’s fear that’s stopping me. Fear of disappointing people. Fear that I really can’t write.
So what do I do? Well, I can either hide in my Cancer-crab shell or I can force myself to face my fears. So far the shell is VERY cozy but I’m working my way out.
What about you guys? Anyone have any tips on overcoming fear?